She's lived in Heaven as many days as she did on Earth

Today marks the day that Julia has lived as many days in Heaven as she did on Earth... 82 days.  I know she is happy.  I am sad and missing her.  I think that as more time has gone, the hole she left has only gotten bigger, not smaller.  Many other women are having babies and life is moving on... but life for me has not.  It is just a reminder of the life I once had and do not have anymore.  I don't understand and I probably never will.  However, I do know that I loved my little Julia and I will love her forever.