The family bed

Last night at 2am, the feeding pump started beeping to tell me that Julia was out of milk. So I got her more milk and as it was warming up, I changed Julia's diaper. This woke her up. Her eyes were WIDE open and she was looking all around. After I got her milk going, I tucked her in her blanket and she just kept looking up at me with these eyes that said, "Hold me, Mama!" How could I resist? So I unplugged the feeding pump from the wall (it will run on batteries for many hours) and brought it and Julia over to my side of the bed. I then propped Julia up on my pillow and got in bed next to her. Julia likes it when I cradle her head. So I snuggled next to her cradling her head and giving her loves and kisses. She remained quite alert soaking in the love. Then after about 10 minutes, I heard Mattie calling out from her room. Bob went to go check on her and before I knew it, they both came trotting back into our room and crawled into bed. She had a bad dream. Now there were four of us in bed. Typically, I would have been annoyed at this situation because it meant I wasn't getting sleep, but this time I was trying to soak in every minute. I was on my side with my left hand cradling Julia's head and my right hand reaching over holding Mattie's hand. I didn't know if it would be the last time we would all be together like that in bed. I had my two daughters snuggled up next to me. It was wonderful and blissful and sad at the same time.